A worried, blinded eye

Tonight at choir practice, something Bryan Taylor said really convicted me deeply, though he doesn't even know it. He was talking about different types of sins we all probably commit, and he said, "worrying about your finances" as he spoke. I really don't know what he said after that, because what he said really stood out in my mind.

He's right - that is a sin. Human nature and the flesh cause us to worry, even though we're commanded otherwise. But in our case, if you're being prudent financially, everything's fine, and you're still worried, then you're doubting God's ability to work in your life and essentially making your finances an idol to be worshipped or at least focused upon for an unhealthy, inordinate amount of time.

My current job that I have right now ends in very early January, win, lose or draw. Ideally, another position will appear otherwise, either before or when that one ends. But I'm worried about that not because I want to simply have something to do outside of the house, but because I am worried about how we'll pay our bills once this job is over.

Not often do you sit in choir practice and get cut to the quick with a convicting statement. But it felt good. I've been praying that God would reveal Himself to us, showing us what He wants us doing and where He wants us to do it in the future. He most definitely revealed Himself to me tonight, but not in the manner I expected. But good, bad, or otherwise, feeling His presence in my life and showing me very quickly a point I needed to work on was a welcome moment, fleeting as though it may have been.

Now if I could only stop worrying about the Cards' lack of bullpen pitching...